Higgledy-piggledy

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The latest issue in "one" magazine discussed the "PRIME DATING YEARS OF GIRL" ,which drive me crazy.
According to THAT mag,DATEABILITY RATING of girl is low in 18yrs old to 23 yrs old.W.H.Y!!?

*Smirk*
This is because we're still that "fresh" and VIVACITY Of YOUTH still ON,right girls??!

Unless SHE intends to get married,there is really no reason to date older men!BUT!!
What's the point that marrying a girl before she turns twenty and divorce by 25 yrs old?!
why they need a HUBBY?or a BOY?

Okay...

That does not mean that newbie cannot find quality dates,but just to avoid jerks that fool girls around.("someone" 's experience plz)
Who knows what is inside guy's mind,get me?
As most of the people said that girl's mind is very hard to guess but i do think the opposite way- "Guy's mind is EXTREMELY hard to catch."
Normally guys are with their pride ,dignity ,money ,jobs ,drinks ,car and girls.
"Obviously" their mind is easy to guess but "internally" is as hard as passing motion when having constipation,huh!DON'T EVER PAY LESS ATTENTION to their emotion,GUYS ARE typical "EMO KING" please!

NEXT,dateability rating is HIGH in 23yrs old to 26yrs old.
That is girls GOLDEN moments with well career on her way,has loved,lost,independent and experienced.

But,
is that means they are "easier" in finding a date??!
What if girls settle down after 30yrs old?
still that charming with more stable career and experienced,right?

however,(-Life is a game that fool us in a 'circle'-),

The scarcity of "choices" might happen after her 30 yrs old,leaves her with the not-so-nice leftover.Sigh..What to do..cruel fact.

Now then i realised how stupid i WAS dragged along by the past,or even stuck in between.oh my god, symptom of ageing!I should (opps!) is I MUST live life to the fullest with FUN BUT NOT DRAG BY THE PAST! Learn as much as i can about love,relationships,money,chemistry,friends and that little curiousity of guy.The most essential things are enjoy my life with fun and happiness.Who ever say that girls cannot live their happy life without guy!?According to the issue in mag,18yrs old girls do not have to find their date that early,indirectly means they don't have to drag by the past but looking for the new one huh?pretty confuse,HAHAs!
*GAMPATEH KUDASAI* -winks-

oh no~Ah!

Ah!I hate to look into mirror now,
the reflection of my SCARY face.AH!!

At first i thought that was some fungal infection on my face but now then i know was "INSEcts bitE!"(not love bite huh,OPPS!)

*I HATE BUGS!*

Ah!!!my face!!my eyeslid!my neck!!my hand!!!
Will it left any BIG SCAR after all!??
can i just stop thinking about the scar or any discolour mark on my face
!??OMG!i can't!!frus!

I'm damn down of the bruises on my face,neck and hand,
i hate bugs that bite me like hell!
i dare not to meet anyone right now and
i just wish tO HIDE in my room until all scary bruises gone!
i don't mind how long it takes for me to hide in the room but i just hate to step out from my room.
i have no confidence in everything now and even a simple "hi" to my friend.
they all just look at my face with their "opened-BIG mouth" and ask me "whAT happened to yr face!?fall down?".hey..kinda hurt..
sigh..
sigh...
sigh.....
...i hate anything of me now and still i hATE BUGS!don't bite me anymore and I DON'T WANT SCAR!

"parabolic path" on my hand

my face!pain.

(post only two pics as the other pics are too scary!)

D & H

I'm that "D"own of freaking fungus infection on my face yet stupid couple still came along and "H"urt me.

It that fun to FOOL me like hell?
It that SWEET that u guys say "hi" to me in this way?

What i know is...
I'm HURT...

Don't u guys think that is too childish to fool around?
and HURT people(ex) as "easy as fucking (but not ABC)".

I know u guys are just "sweet & stable" now but please do something mature,
think before u do..stupid hurt sia...:(

Stay away from me and lead yr own childish "happy moments",
U guys are killing me with yr jokes(can i call this "JOKES"??!).

Thank you for the "jokes" ,
i won't laugh for it instead i broke into tears.thanks.

I don't know what happened to me but tears just pop out itself from my eyes,
my face is wet,my heart is hurt,my nerve is iritating and my mind is angry.

I'm so sick with both of u that hurt me deeply,
I felt tired...and suffocated.

Guess is time for me to close my eyes , breath slowly.
clear my mind and forget everything. -bren-:(

Art for my life

sp clock tower-by bren

my nike sportshoe-bren

...hostel^-bren

"musics as a cure"-i enjoy musics.

ahhhh...study!-bren

...hurt-bren

I love art and i like photograpy.

they are a part of my life.

I learnt art for many years,

but still i'm not bore with my art,

i love to explore art and photography.

all about me are art,

i lead my life with my art sense,

i'm calm when i doing something about art,

it happens itself.

caused by my passion of art, i think.

anyone with his/her art can share with me,

i'm open with art passionate.

there u go,

i love art & photpgraphy!

my story-i like to be myself

I like to be myself,of a story on my own.
I was borned to be like that,
an eighteen yrs old girl who longed for love but was hurt by the past,
that's me.

I m go damn afraid to fall in love and i had have try hard to avoid it.
well,sometimes i wish to be a protege,
a protege is a person who protected by another person,
i like that feeling without any reason but still i don't welcome anyone into my heart,
as there's still a wound on my heart,uncured.

I had learnt from the past and that i won't let myself to be affected foolishly in anything,dreams.
as i know,the things(person,happiness) that come towards me only happen in a sudden,
the word "permanent" is no longer in my story,i don't know why.

I 'm having a boring life.
The life without msg&call.
I know it is a retribution.

A retribution of been infatuated with a relentless person,a scumbag.
I had awaken of the foolishness i did,i know is infallible for me to welcome u into my heart before,
BUT LOVE IS INEVITABLE.

Still,i will try to flash back the sweet times of ours,as it is ineffable lovely,sweet.

But,
fact is cruel>


i rather live in the memories instead of the fact.
Anyway,was a past.
A story of myself,i will lead my way through..i love myself.